Hurt.

It can happen to anyone, anywhere, at any point in time. Hurt has no rhyme or reason. It just happens to people at different stages of their lives.

And today, it happened to me.

This isn't the first time, and it won't be the last. So is life. But it is painful. Life is sometimes painful. What you said to me today was painful.

We were talking about how it is our fault things cannot turn out the way we want them to, and we both accepted the fact. It is your fault, and my fault. It is both our faults. You said that maybe in a couple of months, things will change. I responded happier. But then you went on and said "But we can't make any mistakes this time." What mistakes? I don't regret anything that happened. I don't see how mistakes were made. Was this all just one big mistake to you? Did what we have mean nothing? I hope not. Because to me, it wasn't a mistake. I regret nothing, and I have no idea why you do. You are making this a lot more painful then it needs to be. What happened was NOT so bad. It wasn't a big deal. It was nothing. But it meant something to me, and I know it meant something to you too.

To hear you refer to it as "mistakes" is painful. I know that the events that went on meant something to you, because right after they happened, you told me so yourself. How does your mind just suddenly change? Just because we have hit one bump in the road, are you going to draw back completely? And give in? I can't take it.

Sometimes I wonder if you really mean everything you say. You told me you meant it. If that was really true, you would try harder. To care. To be there. To stick up for yourself.

What happened wasn't so bad. Why can't you look at it in a more positive way?

Know that I regret nothing. And no mistakes were ever made. And I know it is that way for you too. All I am waiting for is for you to admit.

"You don't really love me, but you keep me hanging on." -Quinn Fabre (Glee)